Ten more

I'm ten miles away from my goal this month of running a total of 75 miles.  It isn't that big a distance - the 10 miles.  I've managed really well considering that in the middle of the month, on January 12, I only had 12.5 miles.  That was the day I went on vacation and that was the day I decided I needed to put this year back in order as far as my running was concerned. 
I started on my first day off and went down a path that took me to easy, fun, and solid runs.  Did I go to the gym for some of those?  Yes, I did.  I fit it into that schedule without a hitch.  The work-outs flowed and I managed quite well.  I ran seven consecutive days and a total of nine workouts for the time I was off and I completed an additional 41 miles to add to the 12.5.  This past week of going back to work has proven to be more of a struggle.  I took more days off from runs than I originally planned.  I ran at the gym once and then on Thursday the weather opened it's secret door and let me in to run outdoors.  I set my sensor for a four-miler and once I hit that mark, with the outside temperatures and brilliant sunshine, I just couldn't stop.  I took off and ran until I was just over six miles...a 10K if you will.  So great!  That is where I am now.  I have the time to put in 10 miles to hit my goal for the month.  It's just that my motivation keeps taking a roller coaster ride that seems to be affected by this weather lately.  It goes from gloriously beautiful to downright dreary with each day.  I need to keep reminding myself that my choices are to go to the gym or run outside and not if I don't run outside, I don't run at all.
Another pothole in my mind along the way is that I can't seem to go longer distances on the treadmill at the gym or have inspired runs like I did last Thursday.   But the gym can keep me consistent so I have to admit that positive and the added miles adds another layer to that foundation I am building. 
So it seems I might have to drag myself to the gym this morning with the weather misbehaving yet again.  I have ten miles to go for the month.  If I get in at least 3 or 4 miles today I will feel much better than if I do zero or zero today and still have 10 to do.  I need to get off my princess arse and come back feeling better than I do now.  It's seems like such a hard task at the moment when I would so much rather...
Help me, Obi Wan Kenobi.  You're my only hope.

Stay Strong, princess.
TT